Journal Entry; Ignorance is bliss as long as you accept you’re ignorant
Greetings to everyone, it has been awhile since I’ve last posted onto the blog. A lot has happened since then as well. The passed couple of months–I’ve got to admit–have been one trial after another. I became a prisoner in my home, opening my heart to family—but I got burned in the process. After I finished my spring term at MDC, my mother is hospitalized twice in a row– then my aunt is hospitalized and passed away a couple of weeks ago. After that, my little cousin wakes up not being able to see… And now my mother was hospitalized again. She is not doing well.
I am currently here in Tampa hoping for a second opinion and better treatment for her illnesses. Sadly, due to her Polymyositis the only treatment that lowers her liver enzymes are steroids. Because of this over the years, it has weakened her heart drastically. Now, she needs a pacemaker… But because my mother is stubborn—she put aside going to the hospital during the time my aunt was in the hospital.
I have told myself it could be worse and I have to keep the faith.
I will not be attending school this fall semester because my mother’s treatment is long term. My mother will not be magically healed-because there aren’t any cures for what she has–but I want her to last me as long as possible. Time is of the essence and I haven’t made any time for myself. Although two years ago I decided to write for NaNoWriMo and in one month’s time I wrote eight chapters to my novel. I went back to it and hope to finish it before the end of the year.
I will live say by day because it is all I have at the moment. Thankfully, I have loving family by my side that are not going to leave me alone during these hard times. I have many pieces of Tarot writing I will share with everyone in due time. I have many ideas up my sleeve. Once I get one book out, I feel it will be easier to show the world the rest of my work.
I usually update over at my livejournal but I make the entries private. I will try to update more on my blog site. Please stay tuned for many goodies to come. It is very difficult but I will try to keep my followers informed.
I want to thank every one of my followers and friends that have shed some light during these dark times. Light will shine through, I’m sure of it. My cousin Brandon was showing me some of his books that he used during his first semester in college. It was one of those college survival books. I saw a very interesting quote and decided to take a picture of it. I believe every word of it.
Love you all!
Card of the day; The World
No matter how dark it has been, we all reach enlightenment in different ways. The feeling of the end of an era, feeling the closest to perfection as one can. Open your arms and believe what is to come. The fool’s journey is never easy, but the closer we reach the end of said journey–the closer we are to fulfillment. Dance alongside the universe, smile like you mean it. Shine brighter than you ever have before.
All right my beautiful friends, family, loved ones—be safe! <3
